Starting Over

2009-10-07T14:13:00.000-07:00

"It`s amazing! That`s what it is- amazing." That`s basically how I felt when my braces came off today. I`ve had them on for at least 3 years now, and boy I am SO glad they`re gone. It`s like the relief of a thousand weights being taken off of you. Yep, Brace-less teeth are great.... Retainer teeth are worse.

As of today, I am BRACE-FREE. Yet, I`m stuck with a retainer in my mouth..."woo hoo". It`s okay- better than the braces itself, and my teeth look fabulous, but it IS annoying having to take them in and out of my mouth. Talk about unsanitary. haha, it`s alright of course- I don`t mind too much, in fact, I`m very happy about it.

I currently have other thoughts on my mind right now...
10/7/09- Braces off, Retainer on.
10/8/09- back to school for me, HW time~
10/9/09- Take a test or two here and there.
...and more. Lately, I`ve been thinking about...believe it or not? Colleges. already! Early too huh? well, I figure my best friend and I can raise some money over the summer for it by being a camp counselor. It seems easy enough, and I`ll be working with my best Friend!...hopefully. Plus- I LOVE little kids, and most of them love me. =] what can go wrong? anyway- in the college realm...I think I want to go to one in upstate NY. It supports art, creative writing, music and everything I love. I can almost picture myself living my college days in a place as warmly adjustable as that. and a plus? It`s not far off from home.

No worries tho..I`ve got sooo much time =]

Chapter 1:Original is my game, patience is my name

2009-09-27T10:25:00.000-07:00

=] Hello, and welcome. I can assure you that you`re in a good place and there`s no need to fret. In this chapter, I shall reveal my feelings and emotions. You`ll get to know me more than thought after a while....after all! ..This is just chapter ONE of my tale.....=]

WARNING!: This is a true story, it is not fictional, except for certain aspects of it. You may not duplicate this story anywhere else. It is mine, and mine...ALONE.

Emotions....Emotions are so complex. They run like a stream down a river, and never seem to end. Yet, when it turns winter, the water in the stream will freeze, and you`ll become the most icy barbarian known to man. This happens often, more often than people seem to realize. We`ve learned to ignore it. Not me tho, I have not. Emotions are special and pure to me. They`re what keep the pool on life going for every human in this world. I happen to be a very Emotional person. In FACT- I try to hide it when I cry in public. I recall, one time I was suffering so badly in school from agonizing stomach pain that I could feel the awful dread of my throat closing up and starting to burn, tears begging to leak from my eyes. I would just blink them away and gulp, to hide it...but it was not a good feeling. I know for a fact, that everyone has done this at least once, and it`s very normal. Normal indeed. Yet- we should not ignore these emotions, they, after all, represent us. If you feel a certain way- it`s to show you and warn you of what you must do, or have done. The next time you cry, realize this, and know how to make yourself feel better, instead of sucking it up and tossing it away like trash missing a garbage bin. This`ll never work, and never make you feel better. Emotions are here for a reason- you pay attention to love and happiness- why not the other ones? They`re here to help you, make you understand yourself, make the world a better place, and MAKE you feel love and happiness. If one did not have the other emotions (the "bad" ones) they would never know how grateful they`d be to BE happy. I`m sure we all understand this. Or at least I`d hope so now.

Feelings. oh boy, aren`t THEY a ride on a roller coaster? They too are linked to emotions. Feelings can be described as...emotions for an object, or person, or a certain MOOD people/things put you in. Emotions and feelings go hand in hand. I know for a fact that I have very strong feelings for my family and friends. They are my loved ones and my life...for now as it stands. I love them, care for them, and give as much as I can for them. I have both strong emotions for them, and feelings for them. Each feeling for them is different concerning each person. I`m sure you`d understand, it must be the same for your friends and family. Tho...sometimes it isn`t. You can have a family member, or a friend who really causes you anguish or hate, or any other emotion or feeling.This is normal too, but as the old saying goes, a friend isn`t a friend unless your heart`s in it. If you have a "friend" that causes such emotions/feelings- chances are it`s time to let go and move on. I have, actually, done something quite similar. I once, in middle school, had a close friend named Jenny*, and we did everything together! We were so close, and we had some pretty amazing memories together. One for example, would be a time when Jenny and I had to make a board game for a L.A. project, and out "dice" was as big as the fist of our hand and made out of 6 pieces of paper! We cracked up about it forever, considering all the other kids had normal dice, and we didn`t. I still laugh at it to this day, but....the day came when we had to drift apart. It was hardest for me- because I was so attached to her, and she was the one who betrayed my friendship and left me behind. She actually became my enemy after it too- hanging out with my worst enemies, sharing secrets about me I had only told her. It got so bad, that eventually, I went to the dean and had it all straightened out. After that, we respected each other, but nothing else ever happened. I moved one, and so did she. Hopefully, where ever she is, she`s alright now, and hanging out with a better crowd. Now, I`m not saying this incident is exactly like what some people might be going threw exactly, but it`s similar in a sense. If you have a friend like this- it`s time to move on. They`re only holding you back. Feelings have to be respected and listened to, and if your feelings are telling YOU to leave that friend behind, go with it. It`ll do you good in the end. If a FAMILY member is causing you mixed feelings, you, unfortunately, have to be patient and try to solve the problem, since you`re living with them. If you`re NOT living with them, don`t cause a fuss and always be respectful, but there`s no need to tolerate anything like abuse. Feelings must be listened to, it`s like your inner voice. Do the right thing- and listen to it...it`ll take you places.~ =]

~Inspire Me~

Grande Amore <3333

Starting Over

Chapter 1:Original is my game, patience is my name